This is ....What a random thought?

As you can tell from my title I have no Idea what I want to talk about. I just know that I am still trying to get a handle on things.
Work is overwhelming, so much to do and so little time to do it in. It's rush rush rush and I can't wait for those two days off so I can at least get into the bath and relax, not a shower (which is nice in it's own way) but a long hot drawn out bath - while reading.

Of course this will happen after homework and all that other stuff that needs to get done. Laundry, homework projects for Kyle, homework for me....sigh.

Good news is I'm alive.

Bad news is I have bumps and bruises that are showing up and I don't know where they are coming from. My left arm has three big ones where it hurts to move it sometimes. They should go away soon. I'll drink more water and try to start this exercise routine if I want to lose the last 10 pounds of new baby weight.

Ahh look at the time, running late yet again.

Time is sooo at a premium

Now that I am back to work, I see time at a premium ...Again. It's back to the rat race. I didn't truly realize how much running around I did before Jamal was born.

It was easier because Kyle could get up and dress himself and get something to eat and get himself to the bus stop. He wanted to be be independent, wants to be independent. Now it's wake up see him off to the bus, change Jamal get him ready to go to the babysitter. Once the babysitter picks him up, rush to the bus stop to get to work. Once at work deal with the non stop phone calls., emails and some rank stupidity. Get off from work, take a train to the bus to cut commute time. Pick up the baby and go home in time to check homework and get kids ready for bed.

And of course expect to be woken up at least 2 times everynight by Jamal. Sigh.

It's been a week

I will get the hang of this again

Thank goodness for 2 days off

It's back to work day!

Today I am going back to work. And I am kinda scared.

I look at my little one and think, will you still smile at me when I hold you, will my smell be comforting to you?

he's so tiny, but will be well taken care of.

I do remember that My older son still knows loves an respects me. Well most days he loves me ( those days he's grounded - that love is soooooo questionable)

I have these things in my favor though, My shift is a day shift soo I have time with both kids at night. I love seniority - this wasn't possible when I first went to work with my eldest. Then I had the 3 - 11 shift.

I love my kids, but I have to provide for them, I need medical insurance and food and money for clothes, that is my job.
Wow it's been almost 3 months that I have been on leave.

ok...4 years til little boo is in pre school. 6 years til the older one graduates high school.
yep I can do it uh huh

Availability of funds

Ok how is it if I deposit a check on Saturday that is written on the bank that I am depositing it in, that funds from that check are STILL not available 5 days later?

Check drawn on Bank A , deposited in Bank A , not available 5 days later???

Doesn't add up

I could understand if it were an out of state check drawn on another bank.

Can you guess that I am completely fuming??

Ok that's much better

Good I can see and respond again, this is a good thing

Strange

It says I am not allowed to see my blog....hmmmmmm

Ok now about that tag LilRed sent me :)

Here's a tag from LilRed. I finally did it ;)

I actually had to think about this a bit - because , well, I hadn't thought about it in real depth before.


Target of My Perfect Partner: male
My perfect partner:

1. Has a sense of humor
2. can accept change
3. can hold his own in a debate
4. has many intrests
5. understands I am a mother as well (yes that can be taken a few ways I know )
6. understands I am not a domestic goddess - things sometimes are dirty
7. likes family vacations
8. Likes to travel


So it's my turn to tag...

ok this is my first time so no killing me!!

Ananke
LaRa
Zelmarq
T.
Sustenance Scout

Tag :)

Did they say SNOW?!?!?!

yes it is that nasty word again for Southwestern Connecticut - snow

Predicting 6- 8 more inches of the white stuff.

For the Love of Pete! wasn't the 21 inches we got a few weeks ago ENOUGH?!

NO!!! obviously not.

*sigh*

everything is on the move now

In a way

getting into my classes online, there is alot more reading then I was expecting so I have to manage that.

I have committed to go back to work on the 13th of March. It's so soon but I need the money now. my sick time has run out so it's either work or not eat.

I think in a couple of months, things will get easier - once I get back intot he grove of things. I just found out the good news is that I keep accruing vacation time, so even though my sick time is gone, I will still have the full 20 days vacation. This way if anything happens with the kids, I can take off.

In a couple of months it will be easier anyway, I will be mostly working from home. It doesn't sound too bad as the company is providing the computer and the connection to thier server. We shall see how this goes


And yes, those are the boys :)